So. It’s Friday 18th February and I am writing a little post to update y’all on my little journey.
This week, as you know, things took a little step back from my onwards and upwards plan. My endo pain has been bad on Tuesday and Wed, Thurs and today I am in a lot of pain and extremely fatigued.I went to bed last night at 6pm and I am still exhausted.
It is the start of London Fashion Week today. I was supposed to be in London from yesterday afternoon, and right now I am due to be having tea and gluten free cakes with my blogging crew at Bake a Boo, but instead I am jotting down a blog post in bed.
I am, as always, disappointed that I am not where I thought was going to be. But, as always, I have had to re-jig and reschedule. I am getting used to the fact that endometriosis is a fact of my life, and I am finally, FINALLY accepting that there will still be days like this for a while.
Yes, I hate letting people down. Yes, I hate cancelling. Yes, I get frustrated. Over the last couple of days however, I have been looking at what I have gained from my endo as oppsoed to what it has taken away, and it has really helped my mindset. We have our twins, which Miles and I would not have tried for as early as we did if I didn’t have endo; I have my own business, which I wouldnt have had health not played a huge part in turning my life around; I am my own boss, so when I have to re-schedule the buck stops with me; I have empathy for others in pain; I am more in tune with my body than perhaps I would be if all was hunky dory.
As I said in my earlier post, last week I cut wheat out from my diet, and this week I have added dairy exclusion to the mix – I am 100% convinced this is a major part of the fatigue I am feeling at the moment.
I don’t know much about a healing crisis – nutritionists and health people out there, please tell me – but I would think that if I am having withdrawal symptoms from a food group then pain and endo symptoms may be worse for a while? When I cut out wheat last week I had a migraine 3 days into the week and a stuffy nose which lasted for about 5 days. This week I had pain in Tuesday and have felt tired, achy, heavy limbed and headachy with a bloated abdomen all week. Attractive, no? Oh, and halfway during the week in a moment of “creativity” I dyed my hair bright pinky red. It remains to be seen if the new aquisition will stay, or wether it was merely some teenage angst coming out in the detox I need BLEACH to sort out my handiwork…
I had some lovely Tweets and emails this week from people with advice. I have been recommended a raw food and yoga specialist, an iridologist, and have been chatting to a lovely nutritionist I know through Bitch Buzz. Maybe I should give everyone a go and report back?
As Friday comes and it’s been what looks like a write off of a week, it is fantastic to realise how much other stuff I have achieved. When I am knocked out physically I can still get on and work on projects from home, and a lot of exciting things have been bubbling away under the surface.
It’s Mile’s birthday next week so we have a few days together which I am really looking forward to. The Staff are looking after the Ninos for a night too so we are escaping to a hotel for a night off which will be great. I will save cutting out sugar, caffeine and booze until after that and I need to pick the order I cut my vices down in. Any advice?
My aims this weekend are to enjoy my family, get out there and do a mummy run with the pram (my biceps are thanking me!) and to go with the flow.
In the meantime, I am pink, positive and pro active. Hope you are the same.