Today I have tickets for the Paralympics. It’s a beautiful Autumn day and I have been excited for ages about going.

I am on the sofa, I haven’t gone anywhere yet.

As is so often the case in an endo warrior world, the fact I buy a ticket means I spend money and never know if I can go, yet somehow I don’t give up doing it. I miss out on so many things, (and the irony of missing out on the Paralympics due to chronic illness isn’t lost on me). I refuse to give up planning things and hoping, however many times my hopes are crushed.

I have been doing SO much better recently with my health due to bringing lots of raw food into my regime and slugging green smoothies between yoga sessions like a demon, but I have been living in an ill body for a LONG time and this stuff takes a while.

So, I have been here, trying to get my pain under control with rest, painkillers and a cuppa. Then I decided to take some time and do my make up, try a new lipstick and just make myself feel nicer.

You know what? It has cheered me up a little.

Lipstick and tea may be tiny things,  but I now have a smile on my face.

Let’s see if I make it out of the house.