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The social acceptance of being sick

Posted on: Monday, March 14, 2011

…and by sick I mean poorly, not the actual vom action.

Evenin’g all, hope you had a fab weekend.

So, one week in on the no sugar/fructose/yeast/alcohol addition to my already wheat and dairy free diet. I am eating at least 50% raw food  more like 70% or so), and I am working towards Candida elimination and, of course, optimal health.

So hows it going? Really well, I would say. For the last 3 days or so  have struggled with ‘flu symptoms which may be a viral thing or may be detox side effects, who knows. Other things I have noticed are that my hunger levels are non-where near as ravenous as usual and I am eating much lighter. I LOVE experimenting with new recipes and have found that raw choc cupcakes and cacao brownies are hitting the spot for me, and I am totally hooked on fresh veg juices.

I haven’t suddenly lost all the extra weight (yet), but this is all about health, so I am certain that my weight will balance out as the detox continues and I increase exercise.

One thing I have been thinking about this week is the social acceptance of being sick, of living in a body that is unwell and at dis-ease with itself.

Embarking on a (fairly) radical change of eating is always bound to instigate responses from observers, especially so, of course, if one blogs about it to all and sundry. It is clear I am currently overweight, and it is also clear to anyone who knows me that my body is having a tough time, as endometriosis, depression, and candida have plagued my health for years.

So, you would think that taking action is a good thing, yes? I believe so, but I think that the willpower it takes to make a big change scares people, so they seek to sabotage. “Why are you doing that? “oh my god, what else is there to eat?!” “Not drinking?? You?!?”.

Yes, I am not drinking for a while. It really is ok! I have more energy at the moment and I use alcohol to relax and escape which is great in some ways but it’s really fine to have a break.

There is so much I can eat, there are nuts, seeds, a huge variety of grains, rice, fruit and veg, the earth has loads of stuff we don’t notice when we stick to the same routine.

Cutting out wheat and dairy isn’t for everyone, but there is certainly sense in increasing the raw fruit and veg we intake, just read one of Patrick Holford’s tomes for that nuggett of truth.

It seems more socially acceptable to be overweight, take pills, complain of an illness and seek medical help than to take control of nutrition, seek alternative therapies and embark on a hourney of healing. Maybe the fact I consume bentonite clay to aid detox makes me sound like a crazy tree hugger, but why should it? If I was eating doughnuts every day and developing diabetes, that’s ok, thats normal.

Ahh, normal.

You see, I think the norm is to feel pretty crap, to be tired, to function below par, to have IBS, depression, lethargy, candida. I think the norm is to give in to standard ways of eating, to over consume and to go with the crowd. No one can treat their body badly for a length of time and not pay for it at some point. In our youth while livers work superfast to cope with alcohol abuse and metabolisms are still fast enough to burn extra calories we may feel lucky, but at some point that waist band gets tighter, the body struggles to detox the abuse and we feel worse for wear.

So why fear a new way of thinking, a new way of being? Does it highlight the need for change in other people’s lives? Do we all want others to feel as crap as us because the alternative is less socially acceptable? Does it feel strange to ask for a soya milk decaff latte, or to have a mineral water in the pub? What else can you fill life with if the overconsumption of food and booze is gone, is there a hole that needs addressing?

I was a smoker in my 20′s for a while, and gave up 6 years ago as a present to myself for my 28th birthday. I hung on to the act of smoking as a rebellious part of me, that creative designer-type social thing which would make me who I am.

In actual fact it made me less smelly, skint and likely to die of lung cancer.

The same thing with nutrition; I often fall off the bandwagon because the emotional and social pressure associated with food habits becomes too strong, but I am determined this time to let myself be well, and to live a life as full of vitality as possible.

What obstacles do you find to optimal health? Do you think its socially more acceptable to be sick?

Let me know what you think.

x

#Project endo – abundance and love

Posted on: Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Hello everyone.

A quick update from me today, but a truly positive one.

The end of last week was simply amazing. A lovely friend responded to my post and bought me a juicer and a recipe book which arrived yesterday. I am so thrilled to be able to be juicing now and the universe worked pretty quickly with that one. Thanks my lovely, you know who you are. xx

On Saturday, following a lovely organic, veggie lunch and some shopping with my fellow bridesmaids for my bro and sis in laws forthcoming nuptials we stopped for an AMAZING cocktail, mine was a lavender and lychee martini, utterly lovely and pretty strong.

 

However…on the train back home my tum seemed to react really strongly to the sugary syrup – I can ony presume because I have been eating well that a trigger becomes all the more strong – and my belly blew up so much that someone offered me a seat on the tube. Thinking I was pregnant.

 

Can you feel the squirm and imagine how mortified I was?

Bless this lady, she was so kind and in fact had I been preggers would have loved a seat ( not many did offer when I was waddling with the girls), but I was gutted. So, it has made me plod on with excluding nasties from my diet for #projectendo, and this week I am now eliminating sugar, fructose and caffeine in addition to the wheat and dairy I have already cut out. So basically this is moving towards an anti candida diet to sort out my intestine and let my body have some good stuff back in.

I am DETERMINED to be well, to feel well and to live life to the full.

I don’t feel too bad so far this week, a few headaches but nothing I can’t deal with. I am fully expecting a detox crisis, and want to manage the symptoms so I can cope, I do have a career and little ones to look after in addition to myself.

I have been experimenting with some new recipes, and made some raw cupcakes today for my lovely Mum’s birthday. I did have to sneak one to try, and it really is delicious. I have also discovered Bentonite clay and am using it with Psyllium husks to help detox and cleanse, its an odd one but I will give it a go.

So, the journey goes on. Keep me posted on any tips in this process you guys out there, and I will keep you in on the loop of how I am going. I WILL beat this!

Finally, an inspiring link I discovered from Polly Noble by Dr Christiane Northrup on Women’s Health.

Until next time xx

Endo, weight and bambinos

Posted on: Monday, February 14, 2011

Those of you who follow me on Twitter will know I am embarking on another journey into weight loss. To cut a very long story short, here is the deal: I am 5″3 and at my weight has always fluctuated between 9 and 11 stones. The happiest I have ever been with my weight and body was at 29, when I used to cycle down the Regents Canal to work every day ( an hour each way), and I ran 3 times a week. (here I am with my trusty steed Steve, and mincing around in Venice).

So. Where are we now? Well, fast forward one nervous breakdown, giving birth to twins and the return of endometriosis which kept me bed bound for most of last year (do read the other blog entries if you have the time/inclination!) and here we are.

I lost my baby weight withing 4 months courtesy of Weight watchers and Exercise. I then did a 3 month mainly raw food detox and felt amazing. When my endo came back badly so did depression and the ability to keep on top, so I fell off the bandwagon and let it all go again, thus putting it aaaaaall back on. And a bit more.

I am now 11 stone 3, which is a stone above healthy weight range for my height and 1.5 stone above what I feel healthy with when I am fit and healthy/active.

Amazingly, the universe tends to provide hints and tips, in it’s own all encompassing way. I had an operation for my endometriosis in December and I am now so thrilled to be able to live life again without constant pain. I still have bad days which I need to roll with, but at the moment I am in a reduced pain cycle of life again.

I  have always been intrigued by the raw food movement since reading Shazzie’s blog 5 years ago, and I have dipped my toes a few times. I know I have candida which makes me feel exhausted, foggy head, bloated and other lovely symptoms I won’t go into here. I have tried on occasion to do radical detoxes but always given up when the detoc symtoms get too hard.

So, the universe provides me with lovely friends who encourage me. The lovely Cate Sevilla told me about a book called “Excuses, Begone!” by Wayne Dyer which is currently revolutionising my thinking patterns, literally undoing a lifetime of reasons I don’t live my life to the full. Muireann and her Team Bangs on the Run team have been inspiring me to get out and run, with Bangs and a Bun’s motivational pep talk which hit the spot for the last week.Bit like locker room bollocking from the coach :)

I have also recently met a lovely new buddy in my office base in Covent Garden who runs her own detox company and has been through a similar journey with candida and weight. She has encouraged me to give it another go, so, with the wisdom of knowing that I have 2 young children to look after and I need to go easy on myself I am embarking on a detox in stages.

Last week I elimiated wheat from my diet, this week it’s dairy. The migraine of last week reminded me how harsh detox symptoms can be and that I need to go step by step ( that’s just my own opinion, by the way! )After my OH’s 30th weekend in a fortnight – yep, I have a toy boy –  I will cut out yeast, sugar (including fructose) and booze too, in stages. I plan to do this for at least 3 months to get rid of any candida holding me up and then re-introduce fruit and yeast into my diet but keeping the wheat out.

I once paid a decent amount of money for the amazing advice of Diane Shepperson Mills, a specialist of endometriosis and endocrine disorders. Through this and the huge amount of research I have conducted over the years I KNOW that the best diet or way of eating for me is high raw (60% and over), organic, wheat and dairy free. I know that alcohol depletes B vitamins, I know that wheat makes me bloat and that hormone injected meat plays havoc with my already haywire hormones.

Yet, I dont eat this way.

My excuses are that I am a mum of 2 and we are living on a limited budget. It is very hard to feed us all and eat in the way I want to, BUT excuses be gone! I need to find a way.

Today I have been for a run with my girls in the pram. Only 20 minutes but I have been doing it for the last few days and it’s something. By 7pm I am usually shattered and either working or ready for bed, so I need to find ways that work for me. We plan to get a trailer for Steve the bike soon so that will help, and I aim to restart yoga.

I am being a bridesmaid for my sister in law to be in September and I want to be back to my ideal weight by then. Above all, I want to be healthy, active and happy.

I am following the new Weightwatchers Pro Points plan at the moment too, to keep an eye on my food intake versus movement and I have only lost 1 pound on 4 weeks. BUT I will not be disheartened.

I got cheered on my “mummy run” this morning by another mum who said she never sees anyone doing that, well done. I got cheered up by my Twitter pals who have been the voices of encouragement for me.

So, here we go people. Follow me as I change my life around? I may need your help.

x

PS this is not me, I look much more sweaty and much less cool.

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