At the moment things have been a little crazy. My beloved grandad is 91, and in hospital with pancreatic cancer. None of this is unusual in life, but having an extra element in life to juggle has meant that my usual balancing act has been thrown out of kilter somewhat.
When I need to spend several hours a day either in hospital, on the phone to hospital, relatives, social care people, etc, juggling young twins, running my own business and dealing with chronic fatigue and endometriosis becomes tricky alongside daily stuff like running a household.
I made the call to back off from work to get my family through this tough bit and to try and rest when I can to be able to be there for the people that matter, my family both young and old.
I have noticed a real difficulty in my psyche when it comes to seeing the bigger picture in situations. I put pressure on myself to keep a tidy house, stick to my to do list and stay on top of things desite what life throws at me. This could be a day in bed with pain unexpectedly, or being needed somewhere else. Essentially, being flexible and going with the flow is an area I am aware I need to work on more, as well as not sweating the small stuff.
Logically I can see that if I am in bed one day with endo, or needed for a while to step up for my family, what does it matter if I am behind with the house work or the office is a mess; so what if my garden is overgrown and the decorating hasn’t been done yet? These things can all wait but as an organised ” to do” list freak it can sometimes be hard to cross things off the list that can wait.
Do you find it hard to see the bigger picture and not sweat the small stuff? I am sure I am not along in this one