So, last night I ran 9 miles. Massive achievement for me, so pleased and proud.
Today I am in pain, it’s fairly bad but bearable and I need to rest.
So, that means plans have to change. As always, I need to be aware of my limitations and go with the flow.
Sadly, not everyone understands this, and it happens often. A friend today said she gives up on me for cancelling “again” .
Well, give up.
As I told the person concerned, I cancel, friends, family, clients, colleagues, when I need to. It’s not nice, I hate doing it and over the years I have worked hard to drop the associated guilt. If people think I am a flake, so be it. Try having young toddlers, living in pain and still smiling.
If I had to be somewhere super super urgently and was able to walk then I would push myself to go and pay for it for the next 3 days afterwards. This is what people don’t understand about a chronic illness – I know what I am managing, I know how to deal with it and if you don’t understand? Not my problem, I got enough already and I am dealing with them thanks very much.
I suppose people see my running updates and are confused by the fact I can do that one day and not the next. Well, it’s the way I live my life and I am happy to talk about it so people understand, but I am not going to continue to apologise.
So, any one else want to tell me how crap I am today? It’s an open forum